we are live I think we live hey everyone welcome back to this episode of the deep dive featuring who are you who are you Molly are we live can you hear us where's the chat there this is the chat guys if you can hear us let us know and we shall begin can you hear us that's where we've clicked live button we should be there might be a delay because yeah there's gonna be a significant today okay let's see yeah we actually live yes we can be heard this is fantastic sweet so let's minimize that we've got the chat hey everyone welcome to this episode of the deep dive what are we talking about today I don't know I've been forced here against my will so I will be doing any you tell me to do apparently fantastic okay so in this little deep dive we're gonna be talking about lessons that we've learned from the last two years of being doctors does that sound reasonable okay yeah and so in preparation for this lots you sent in questions via Instagram some of them were mildly inappropriate as always but we have some very good questions some of which are medical themes some of which are non-medical themed and so those are the ones that we're going to be tackling does that sound okay sounds amazing is there anything you would like to plug in in initially in the preliminary stages well I guess introduce myself yeah yeah oh yeah the point we need an introduction and when you don't Instagram plug and so my name is Molly I am a junior doctor working in Cambridge region and Ally and I met at University we both went to the same College at Cambridge and so we've known each other for what eight years now and we've lived together for the past two years and that's essentially me I really like food so one of my main hobbies is my Instagram which is Cambridge foodie and I have a website as well where I basically blog about food and a bit about my life nice that was a very succinct introduction I feel a fit it's as if you've done that before out of focus now or back and focus this microphone keeps getting in the way there's a problematic everyone please follow Molly's Instagram account maybe it's linked in the video description oh it is I've potentially maybe it's not who knows she'll will kick things off yeah okay questionable one what's what's something you wish you knew before you started your careers as doctors getting deep I think one thing recently that I've started thinking because I think the structure of the training of medicine is a bit mysterious to people who aren't involved in it and so essentially here in the UK you either do five or six years at university before you're qualified from that point you're qualified as a doctor and then you have to do two years of what we call foundation training so f1 f2 and we're just coming to the end of our f2 year now and after that point that's when you choose what your specialty is going to be so then you might choose to do medicine and specialize further or do surgery or Pediatrics psychiatry that kind of thing and I at the moment we're now at the stage where we have to choose what we do next and I don't really know at the moment what that is for me I don't think you do either and so I kind of wish I'd known at the beginning that you didn't have to decide that really early doors and there is the option of taking time out or having extra time you know doing different specialties that you want to try a bit more before you then make that big decision that I'm going to train in this forever and because otherwise it suddenly hits you at the point of f2 that you are either good because you are doing the right thing and keeping going and doing your training or you're supposedly bad because you haven't chosen yet and actually I think it's important to know that it's not just a dead cert you can mold your career in medicine the whole way through basically yeah you kind of do what you want and it doesn't matter if you don't really know what to do yeah wait for it that is the way forward oh we've got a comment i'll use hera so frickin glorious nice thank you or do you pick that out thank you understand the messages there we have another one well Moloch will Molly miss Ali one Sally moves to America no I think he's saying I would he will Miss Molly ones Ali moves to America ah that's cute that's nice that's very sweet yeah okay another one after two years as a doctor what would you do differently if you went back to med school I'll go first with this one if I were to go back to med school I would do a little bit more space for a petition and a little bit more active recall because I feel like like we knew so much stuff in first and second year we were like absolutely like Don's eye of like pre clinical medicine first and second year and then you don't revisit ever and then it just disappears from your brain and there are very occasionally moments in real life where I think oh I knew this fact at one point in first year but I don't know anymore and it would look really impressive if I could just bust it out right now so for example if I the you know assisting in operations and stuff if you're doing a c-section a cesarean section for the first time with a consultant they might ask you hey well you know what what are the layers of the anterior abdominal wall or they might ask you what that muscle is or they might ask you what is the transverse say that transverse ælis fashio and all of those things are stuff that we definitely knew in first year and those things and things were we're now like oh I don't know enough to be able to it's it's it's somewhere and I think if I had just done a little bit of active recall and spaced repetition of old stuff as I went on through medicine it would have just made me a more impressive looking doctor even though objectively probably want to made much difference in real life yeah yeah for the stats for the brunt of course yeah um to be honest what was the question what we would change if you would do differently if you went back to med school I don't think I would change anything to I think the only thing for me is obviously my intense fear and meltdowns around exam period I think could have been slightly less regular um but those did get better towards the end of medical school so that was a gradual learning process I don't think I could have changed that well you would say I could but um that would be the only thing to obviously have fear of those times where I thought I thought everything was going terribly but actually looking back I really enjoyed the whole thing see what you into anything other than just having fewer fewer meltdowns yeah okay fair enough we've got another question here what's the most hated aspect of your job that people often overlook the most hated aspect what do you hate most about it I mean the the actual job of medicine I don't really hate anything I think we've both said this before that the the admin surrounding it is the thing I hate most it's the fact that and I know that there's lots of other jobs where there supplies as well but and certainly for us there's no planning annual leave in advance is really really tricky and so if my friends at the moment for instance are talking about a holiday next May and and I'll see there's a lot more reasons why that might be an issue at the moment but normally if my friends talk about a holiday next year they will want to book they'll want to sort it out pretty quickly and I will not know until maybe three weeks before whether there's a chance I'm going to get time off and so far I've never missed something I really really needed to go to like sister's weddings and things like that but it's the the stress around not knowing how whether you're going to get that time off and it sometimes goes right to the line like it was a couple of days before my sister's wedding I finally got my onion Eva pretty so it's just that constant level of having to sort that out that I find really tricky nice I think sort of apart from the general admin and sort of the fact that it's a job that I dislike about it one thing that I I don't like is actually the feeling of responsibility when you've made a mistake because if you've made a mistake and you know you've made a mistake then sometimes a mistake like it doesn't matter stuff what stuff will sorted out but occasionally you realize I'll crap you know you get that sinking sensation when you know you've done something wrong which means a patient is I don't know has suffered harm in some way or another you know most of the time it's very minor like oh the patient we had to call the patient back into hospital but even then it's still like I you know if I'd just done things a bit differently then we would've had to call them back into hospital for example and you know they've been home and I stay with their family whatever yeah so did that that sort of sinking sensation on when when someone says hey Allie do you remember that patient that you saw on Monday like oh god what is it now please tell me and it's sort of that sort of you know sort of on the edge of your seat wondering yeah do you remember when I sent the blood tests in the wrong bottles why'd you tell the story it's might be too soon I essentially I sent them wrong a blood test in the wrong bottle because in different hospitals you have different bottles for different like different colors mean different things and so certain blood tests have to go in particular ones and these particular blood tests and the patients had come in from the community to have a blood test and then I they had to be sent off to a different Hospital and so the other Hospital had different bottles and I didn't and only found out the end of the clinic and I've been doing a whole clinic sending off happily the wrong colored bottles so the patients would have to come back and have it repeated which was I taped with really well ya know that feeling is horrible when you know you've messed up yeah but hey it happens let's move to a non-medical question Felix asks why is Molly moving out and well a number of reasons we initially probably plan to only live together for two years beginning because my boyfriend lives in Darby at the moment but he's moving down to Cambridge next month so the plan was always to wait hopefully and see if we were still together and if we wear them we would be moving in in Cambridge so that's why I'm leaving yeah man things worked according to plan another non-medical question Molly you do wheelchair races do you use one all the time or for certain activities only and no I don't use a wheelchair all the time and I so essentially for background because people will be confused and I had bone cancer when I was younger so I've had a hip replacement and various different things like nerve damage in my foot and problems with growth in my legs so basically my left leg is not great and so I usually have to use a stick to get around or I'll use crutches quite a lot of the time if I'm doing going outside for walks and that kind of thing and wheelchair I have I tend to reserve it for like day trips or on holiday for instance if we're exploring a whole city or say we're going to like a theme park then I might use a wheelchair but for racing I have a separate racing chair and so that's a hobby I took up probably about five years ago now and and it's really good fun it means because I obviously wouldn't be able to do you know running races but it means that I can get involved in 5ks 10ks that kind of thing I'm using the racing chair we've got a fun question from the chat from Mike Jones Ali are you upset that Molly had an easier time in life and you do have white privilege please no great do you feel your life is boring um do I feel my life is boring no no what's happening to the house when Ali moved to America this America thing honestly um yeah we'll see whether he moves to America hi Molly how do you feel about Ali living to America again we'll see if he leaves to America Ali do you ever have both Wow anyway next question is let's go to another medical one any hot warming interactions with patients I mean loads there's so many there's always heartwarming interactions like every day with their small things or big things and really if you seek them huh I don't know I am I had a really nice one recently where a patient was quite unwell and we were quite worried that he might die in hospital and so we found out that she what he really wanted to do was to get married and so we managed to arrange for him to have not a wedding unfortunately because it just wasn't possible at the time but we managed to do like a blessing ceremony and get his partner in and I had like a a video calling from The Vicar doing a really emotional ceremony and that was like one of those mates really like well this is my job this is crazy but yeah that was really nice and I think that meant a lot to them how about you I was gonna say a few weeks ago because I'm on I'm on gynecology I was I was cherubs chatting to a lady asking various questions you know on in certain medical specialties you ask very pointed questions about people's sex lives for example and she says yeah so we were talking about sort of set with sexual partners and stuff because when you're doing a sexual history you ask them whether they've been kind of sleeping with one person for a long time or multiple people that sort of thing and she said yeah I've had one I've had one sexual partner and my husband for the last 35 years and I said oh I'm sorry to hear that and she burst out laughing and she was like that's like the best thing anyone said to me all week and I was like nice and I felt like that was a heartwarming interaction because I think the risk with adding a little bit of banter because I sort of gauged that she was pretty chill and yeah she enjoyed it so that's that's really emotional but that's my emotional heartwarming interaction did Molly ever experience sexism during work by patients or co-workers well yeah I think it's I think you do experience it I've I've never felt that it's have stopped me doing something but that you definitely see little things all the time like and you definitely see that if there's a female consultant they get mistaken for a junior doctor much more regularly than a male consultant would do and like ask to do like a discharge summary for a patient and they're actually the consumption and we you get a lot of comments about what you wear I find I don't know if you get that I mean at the moment we're wearing scrubs so it's quite good I wear bright orange trainers I always get comments about that okay Tinley want to wear the headband as well I get comments about that but yeah we get a lot of like I remember like we were all wearing black dresses and it was like three female doctors who were on the ward and this patient was like mmm could have worn bit something a bit brighter all of you and it was a bit of dismissive to all of us and talked about our the color of our dresses for the whole ward round rather than actually acknowledging the consultant was here to review him and but yeah only little things like that or little like inappropriate comments from generally older patients nice for the record I have not experienced any sexism in the workplace next question are you able to somewhat have a normal work / personal life balance yeah yeah yeah if you want to have a work-life balance then you choose what that balance is basically I think a lot of the whole oh my god being a doctor is really hard it's just sort of heavily inflated by the media because like oh we only work like 45 hours a week on average yeah and that's basically a nine-to-five with few extra hours on average yeah you'll have some weeks where you work 17 hours and some weeks where you work 30 mmm but that's how averages work exactly so it's very very doable to have a decent work-life balance provided you care about that sort of thing are the best bits of being a doctor the same as what you thought they would be what do you think the best bits are being a doctor er so I I think I thought that the best bit of being a doctor would be like the whole I don't know you got to have heartwarming interactions of patients but actually I think the best bit of being a doctor is is the banter that you have with your co-workers yeah I could just like really fun hanging out with other doctors and nurses and stuff on the ward and you sort of get to know each other really well and it's like it's like when you go into work you're hanging out with your buddies depending on which ward you're and assuming you get on with the team but that is that's such a large proportion of it like whereas you know you might once in a blue moon get a patient married off or something and that would be nice and hot warming yeah it won't be very high measure it would be high magnitude but not high measure in that sort of the frequency of those interactions compared to the overall you're at work is quite low whereas the amount of time you spend just hanging out with your colleagues at work is actually really high and that is probably my favorite part of going into work each day yeah I don't know I'm trying to think because obviously when we initially wrote our personal statements we probably wrote what we thought were gonna be the best bits like a lifelong learning career in learning like that which I do genuinely still like that think of it that we're always learning new things like that's pretty interesting to have a job that you get to learn every single day but I feel like in a lot of jobs you get to learn every single day and in most of the jobs that our friends from university are doing then they're learning new stuff all the time it's another thing that's not I think a lot of jobs you wouldn't know if you were doing the same thing yeah fair enough and we you know medicine is constantly evolving new things are always turning up and I still do like that aspect I do like the aspect of helping people being able to you know the fulfilment of helping someone to feel better I feel more comfortable you know those kind of things but yeah I do think that if you've got a good team around you that yeah that's the thing you look forward to in there going into work don't you do you find that you so I find that I always feel more fulfilled when it's when it's been like a thing that I am specifically done to help the patient like if I've gone above and beyond to arrange their scan out of hours or something yeah whereas most of the progress in medicine sort of most of the healing that is done is done very much by the system by the team by the guidelines by following the protocol whereas occasion you'll go out of your way to do something like organize a wedding for someone and then that will make you feel more good than just the generic run of the Bill Miller patient is getting better over time yeah you don't come home with like a halo if your head every single day being like I made such a difference like saving lives it's just it's just when like that particular feeling is when you've personally gone that extra bit for someone yeah but yeah cool do you think becoming a doctor has made you a better people person in general if you like you always pretty good people with yeah but I do think it's I mean it's constant social interaction is yes so you're constantly testing that yeah you know testing that skill and learning how to communicate and we literally had communication skills training which the je public wouldn't get that at university of how to communicate with people so I guess it does improve your interactions in that way yeah I would agree how do you cope with difficult days of work what tactics do you use to keep ticking and focused and what do you do I don't really have difficult days at work or if I do it's like I get home and I know she's awful occasionally complain about it to you like my doctor at work thing yeah like venting to friends later um well I guess what are the things I find difficult I find it difficult if I feel like we haven't done as good a job as we could have done hmm that's often because you haven't been asked to complete all the jobs that were on your list because there are too many jobs but otherwise I don't know what a difficult day at work would be unless it's something where you've found out you've made a mistake or something like that but I mean I just offload to people talk it through and call about 10 people and then after that eat nice food and go to the gym that's my way of relaxing solid coping strategies yeah if you were to get on a 24 hour flight what is the one book you would bring with you see I don't really read when I'm on flights because I'm so terrified through the whole thing oh yeah I bring VIX on holiday and never read them because I'm so scared of flying that's a good cup up yeah what's the book you would take on holiday it changes I well I always like either well they're always got a medical twist and they're normally either like a novel where the character has something medically wrong with them or there's the category of like patient stories telling their story or doctor's memoirs those are basically my three different categories basically everything to do with medicine yeah exactly nice so there's loads of different books one of them that I really loved recently was called with the end in mind and that is a palliative care consultants memoirs basically of patients who looked after in the last days weeks months of life and I thought that was very poignant I would take the name of the wind by Patrick Rothfuss I feel like this is a good illustration of the contrast between palliative care memoir it was a very poignant good fantasy book it's about a kid you're like nuns you can do magic and then goes to some school for magic but like you know it's really good great yes would you date each other if he was oddly messy or tidy around the house hey it's pretty it's pretty tidy today no look he has this is the first time ever I've come home and he's tidied the whole thing and it's just for this live stream well yeah you never even clean normally for the your usual live streams but it's because you're gonna see more the background in this we also had the cleaner come over earlier this afternoon did you actually yeah that's why I didn't know that that's what I was very impressed with your cleaning skills I would never do that the new Hoover arrived as well ince I was playing with it and I got rid of all the all the cobwebs from the balcony and from the gym thingy outside so gin alley is not tidy okay we've got what do you both want to specialize in I'm thinking emergency medicine I don't really know medicine of some sort not surgery okay do doctors get paid a lot um well it depends what your scale is if it's a good salary but it's nowhere near the salary of my friends who've gone off and at the big box in their big London corporate jobs but it's also above the average salary in the UK so it's comfortable it's comfortable mm-hmm people say if all of a sudden you weren't legally allowed to be a doctor you got struck off to do our job well what would you do instead and I'd be a teacher Hey Oh like primary school secondary school secondary school science teacher nice biology and chemistry not physics that's nice I used to do tutoring and I really liked it yeah fair enough yeah that's something you I don't know that you but if I couldn't be a teacher like if it had to be my dream job you know like there's either you're realistically what would you do I'd probably go off the mill teacher um but my dream job would be to be a restaurant critic why would you not do the dream job because I don't think I'd be very good at criticizing food so then why is it your dream job well because I just want to eat the food at restaurants like getting my city received you want to be a food influencer but not necessarily a critic where you have to actually review yeah because if I I'm never mean about food because I like all food normally say okay I wouldn't be a very good reliable critic if I just went and said this is good I see this is also good this is a good one so you want the sort of job that gives you loads of free food but it means you don't have okay so Cambridge foodie basically just full-time yeah full-time eating nice food yeah by the way guys fought at Molly's Instagram well we have a super chat Cal H has given 1.99 to ask the question which Anki Dec for finals can you share I don't know what Anke is say won't be helpful here I mean independent I'll be talking UK finals are we talking USMLE like what are we talking about here the USMLE decks are pretty good I would look at and King version 7 that's very good that applies to most medical schools even if you're not taking the USMLE so that would be my recommendation thank you for the 1.99 we can use that to buy half a miso soup next time we go to sushi really nice okay will Molly's start her own YouTube channel and if yes what what would it be about no I don't plan to start a new YouTube channel if I did then it would be about food but I don't have any plans to do that why not because I don't you hardly ever get me to be on camera sure I don't like being on camera hmmm that's what you say is that is that actually true though yeah but then I don't want to I wouldn't want to film myself all the times I think if it's not all the time at one time I think I look at your lifestyle I don't want that okay why would I want to do YouTube but you can do YouTube without going as Extreme as I do on it I like taking photos of food okay fair enough how does Molly feel feel about you moving to the US and I still stick to my previous answer of not definitely thinking that Ali's gonna move to the US but we'll let him prove me wrong yep please please please talk about imposter syndrome and how to deal with it um do you get a Potter syndrome oh yeah not anymore though like when I do all right boys say what are we defining it was monster syndrome what are you thinking that you aren't good enough I don't know how do you think you're how do you define impostor syndrome that you're an impostor in what you're doing that people are gonna discover that you are yeah as good as you think as you are qualified yeah kind of this fear that you've stumbled into something and at any moment know you're gonna get found out and people gonna be like yeah and do you get that feeling / did you get that feeling of the starter and yeah I think I don't really get that feeling now actually not much but that's because I'm not in and probably not in a new scenario every time I'm in a new scenario it's more that I'm I want to do my best in each situation and I don't want to be feeling like I'm not good enough but that's not the same as thinking I'm gonna be found out as an impostor because I I think as we've gone along we've got more and more qualifications haven't we and like more and more that to me has been more and more evidence that I'm meant to be doing this if that makes sense yeah like in first year yeah you know like at the start we got in Sakhalin the dredge I 100% in first year of medical school thought there's no where should be here I'm gonna fare all my exams I'm not good enough they've made a mistake letting me in you know that's just what I spent my first year thinking and then gradually each year I'd build up more and more evidence by doing okay in exams and each year that's more and more evidence for me that yes this is the right thing and you're good enough to be here so I guess you just but how much evidence do you need to us then eventually convinced yourself I think if I then went into a new thing I'd need more evidence in that Avenue hmm yeah overall your self-esteem is just generally quite low and you're there and therefore you need a large amount of information external validation to build your internal sense of but then I would also say that my self-esteem is not that low I don't like I used to have probably quite low self-esteem but now I'm quite confident in myself oh yeah no I'm saying in the past yeah yeah but that's probably because then I've got enough evidence yeah I don't know I like it took six years of you doing well in medical school exams to realise that you want a failure yeah that seems yeah but now I haven't had an exam for two years and now I'm at the point where I'm having to book on to MRCP which is like the first like if you're doing specialising in medicine then you have to do more exams as you go through and to get more qualified and sort of you know go up to being a consultant so MRCP one is the first exam I'll have to do and I've been really putting off doing any exam since uni because I hate that feeling of not being good enough and thinking you're gonna fail so I feel like once I do that I'll then be like so if you use a new thing if you've imagined yourself preparing for it and doing it yeah like objectively it's not gonna touch the sides yeah but I'm terrified but but still internally you've really worried that oh crap I'm gonna fail it and I don't think I can really yeah but that's not impostor syndrome that's just fear of failure yeah it's not me thinking I shouldn't be at this stage yeah okay but yeah every every new rung on the ladder is always gonna be interesting have that low level of mellow therefore see how there's so that yeah I'm I was like I could have booked on in September but I didn't because I was like oh don't have enough time now I can't do it in two months and now the next one's in January if it's two years at two days after my birthday and I'm like sarahdan I will see if I actually get it done this year so how how much do you identify with the phrase how hard can it be and well I don't ever use that really okay so I'm so for for every challenge that comes your way you think right this is a big deal come on Molly you can do it rather than this is sort of the border borderline arrogance that people like me or Jake would approach exams would be like yeah it's an exam I'll prepare for it how long could it be yeah yeah what do you that is why I don't have that same feeling why are you not arrogant why are you not just attack and he's still does he use that way and I don't know I don't know I don't know I I wish a lot of the time that I could be more confident when it came to exams yeah and I definitely through medical school I did get better and better and better yeah so I was less aversive wreck hmm bye sit here examined term then I was in first year by far so I think I have got better at that as I've got older because like GCC's I was terrible a levels I was completely terrible and it just got gradually better from the first year on ones bun and it takes a lot of effort for me to have to say to myself look you've done okay so far okay I have to present it to myself and being like when I'm in that moment and say you have done well before yeah you are if you want to you will do well but I I think there's two types of people like we've said before that there's like people who are aiming not to fail the exam and people who are aiming to do well in the exam and I definitely feel like one of the people who's aiming not to fail the exam and I revised to not fail and on the side managed to do well yeah because I'm revising so much because I'm terrified of failing but that first and foremost is my fear when I open exam results is that I'll fail the exam not how well I've done it exam interesting whereas like you and Jake I know that you go friend go how well can I do in this exam which is just a totally different way of where does that come from aiming for it I don't know because but I do think there's two different because if you talk to people they will either be on the other definitely that's interesting I had a follow-up question okay so let's say someone's listening to this and they sort of relate more to your position than then to mine what kind of advice would you give for people to become be more self confident in themselves about this about like exam results or any other anything else really like other than just sort of the barrage of external validation or empirical data is there anything else that you do more internally to help the self-confidence run I don't know I think that's the main thing I do is present evidence to myself because I remember in night second year I think I literally made a document on my computer which was like things I have done I think he's still there and it's literally a list to myself of things by second year that I had done so that I could look back on that when I was being Mike I am not achieving anything and then look at it and go okay no I've done quite a lot of things or I've done well in these exams or I've done these extracurricular things so I don't need to worry but that's the main thing I do but then the problem is what if you don't have that evidence and you want to push yourself to be one of these people who's just going for it to do as well as you can but I don't really know what else I do I think it just comes with time as well and as you get older less like there's the idea of if your whole identity is one thing then you be very stressed if that one thing falls apart so if your entire identity is doing well in exams then if you don't do well in one exam then that's everything gone isn't it whereas if you can spread your identity and spread what what you are striving to do well in so say it's for me doing well in the gym like doing it exercise and getting good at that and doing well academically doing well in my job as well and having you know friendships that are fulfilling and things like that and working at friendships and then my food blog there are multiple different things so if one of those doesn't doesn't go my way then I've got other things to go back on but I remember because I was thinking of that the the time when I started thinking of that that sort of notion was that I not sponsored was when I broke my arm last year yeah and because I remember because for me I randomly broke my arm in July and literally almost a year ago now and and it was really really difficult for me to deal with and I guess normally breaking around might not be the complete end in the world but for me I break my arm I use for crutches and so I therefore couldn't get around very much anymore I had to use my wheelchair and actually be pushed in the wheelchair because I couldn't even push the wheelchair myself so I was completely dependent on other people for a long time and having gone from being a very independent you know f1 junior doctor and I remember thinking about this this idea again about the facets of your personality and what you try to do well in and I remember thinking why is it that this has completely thrown me and like nothing has in recent time and I think it was because all of the things that I did so I couldn't go for meals out anymore because I couldn't get there so I couldn't do my Cambridge foodie stuff I couldn't cook either I couldn't use my arm I couldn't work so I didn't have that anymore and I couldn't go to the gym or do any kind of exercise so all of my things and I couldn't even see my friends because I couldn't meet up with them I couldn't get there and I was too unsafe to do that because I couldn't walk anywhere so that destroyed like all of the things I was doing maybe if I had academic stuff going on at the same time that could have kept me a bit more level but I didn't have an exam I was providing for so I think dividing your personality is clearly clearly helpful until the point when wiped out yeah I remember coming back to you and saying that when I cuz I moved out to be with my parents when they were looking after me and I came back and you were like interrogating me about what I'd learned and and that was where I had been thinking about that that made me think about why it was that that really hit me nice yeah so it sounds like you're saying diversify your identity but to an extent that is a easier said than done but also there are things that are just gonna happen that will just flow you and there's not really a lot you can do about them yeah other than just kind of work through them and come on the other side yeah and remember those things have happened before and you've got through them hmm that's pretty deep okay do you ever regret being doctors no okay how much free time do you have in a day well it depends on the day if you're working a night shift or you're working a long day then you don't really have any free time in those days but um normally you have as much free time as anyone else you come home and you've got four or five hours in the evening no one and if it's a weekend you've got the whole day okay we've got a question from the chat so we're gonna turn to questions from the actual chat if you want to get your question definitely aren't asked then send a super chatting you guys and that will fund I'll take away this evening if we can make enough money off of this livestream lull we've got a question from Jessica Castro says Mali as a female doctor what is the best advice you can give to young females pursuing medicine just go for it I think if you there's a lot of times where you certainly sometimes for me I felt that I am a bit more nervous about putting myself out there or like answering questions publicly like in lecture theatres and things like that and also like asking for things I think is sometimes a bit tricky so I think you've just got to have confidence in yourself and your abilities and go for it and find opportunities and ask to be a part of them if you can because there's lots of different things like projects and things that are always going on but often you don't find them until you ask about them nice okay why do you want to move to the US and not Australia or New Zealand this is addressed in the video are you still taking finasteride yes hi guys there we go according to what you know about have experienced how informative and experienced promoting in the surgical field is training they're not quite sure what you mean do you mean I think I think this person means they want to be a surgeon and they're wondering about moving to the UK for training I can't really answer that I do surgery I think is pretty good pretty good yeah people still have to kind of come in out of hours to get their case numbers up and a lot of stuff is done by consultants now which means the trainees can often complain that they have less time to be able to do their training cases I feel like this is the case in most places but I can't really say anything about that is the whole hit me up and came if you happen to be in Cambridge to grab a cup of coffee still a thing oh yes it's on my website very much the thing very much is the thing people come over all the time they are always here saved Oh interesting I'm an intern in India and lost a patient recently who had some comorbid along with kovat did you guys ever experience the sadness of losing a patient and how did you cope with it yeah I mean it's it's interesting because in my first year the whole first year of medicine not one patient died when I was on my shift I should have been your hashtagging saving life but you would patients were often I find that patients die out of hours more than in the day I don't know why that is but I'm so you would still find that someone's not there or something when you came back but this year I've certainly and especially we've Cova die have had a lot more patients dying when I've been there as well I think it depends completely on the circumstances because if it's a if it's a younger patient who had a reversible illness which you weren't able to treat then that's a very different situation to someone who it's very elderly very frail and you know perhaps has n stages of Alzheimer's or memory impairment and they're gradually fading away and I think often those patients who are the the most frail patients or patients that you've been out a plan palliative care around and making them comfortable and helping with their symptoms I think actually that can be a really comforting thing if if it's done well and but I think the death that you haven't planned for and known we're going to happen a much more tricky to deal with and can be quite unsettling but I think we've been trained very well to deal with that and to know what our who it is we can speak to about it yeah I don't know if I've ever I mean I've been upset about patients dying but it hasn't often left me really upset for days for instance it's something where it's a low level of that's really sad but most of the time it is patients that you were expecting it and you've been able to put things in place to make it as peaceful as possible yeah me the one that comes to mind is I was sort of there was a patient who unexpectedly died he had a he had a cardiac arrest and the resuscitate efforts were not successful and I was I was thinking about that for like a solid week afterwards like it was keeping me up at night thinking kind of was there anything I could have done differently what should I have done differently and sort of those sorts of thought patterns that was probably the most kind of difficult to deal with death but ultimately the important thing like from my perspective was that it was a learning opportunity you can't change the past what you can do is learn from it and once I sort of made my peace with that and had like a debrief with my consultant and all this sort of stuff then I sort of stopped worrying about it so much but yeah as you say otherwise the majority of the deaths that we get in hospital are fairly expected and it might be upsetting but it's like well that's life isn't it mm-hmm oh we're out of focus again they were back in hey Molly a fan here love you're grounded and sweet personality what's the plan for the future as a medic what special did you find yourself drawn to for me it's Pediatrics and yeah I love pediatrics I am torn between pediatric palliative care and general medicine and GP and I still don't know what I want to do maybe it'll be a mixture of all of them at various stages of my career we have a super chance 750 rubles which is apparently about $10 Oh from crystal of hope thank you very much crystal of hope that'll be one of them you'll sorta to the night if anyone else wants to continue donating what is the best way to keep a blood flowing if I sit at a desk all day long and have varicose veins walking how often it for how long if you don't answer such questions it's okay still love your content Oh keep your feet moving that's what you want yeah whenever people go and flights you've got to you know keep the blood flowing through your legs by keeping your feet moving but you have your standing up yeah standing desk is great if also if you tried one of those treadmill desks that's kind of next one might to buy lists like yeah you got a treadmill underneath your desk you like literally just walking along and they walk like eight miles in a day just by walking casually and he didn't even notice it but you've got your steps in probably not the crystal of hope I would recommend a treadmill desk people have spoken to who use treadmill desk say it's like the best thing ever and change their life seem you might want to try that out but yeah walking is good if you can do walking then it's always good for the soul I think going for a walk oh this is a good question have you ever thought am I breaking the rules here in what in the job I imagine I don't know what that would mean am I breaking the rules yeah what Henry Richard please be more specific we focus you know no no no Henry Richard please be more specific with your question oh we have another slip job ten pounds from non-heme goal hussein thanks man or gal well whatever thank you that'll basically be I'll take away sorted for tonight that's very kind there's not even a question attached to that I didn't even know you could do this what a legend thank you I think the rules question is interesting because because I feel like on the job I occasionally do things where I feel like I'm breaking the rules but then I often think well who made the rules of the first place right so for example as a general rule were not allowed to request ultrasound scans after 5:00 p.m. because the ultrasound department is closed but if you know that they're running a little bit late and you go up to the receptionist and beg and be like please you know it's just one scan please yeah then often they'll do it and that is technically kind of breaking the rules but it's it's an arbitrary rule that's yeah I really begged for someone to get their prescription so they can leave hospital even though I submitted it four minutes after they closed accepting them yeah and yeah trying to get someone to have their ultrasound even though they were sent on the wrong bed and they've missed their snot yeah yeah if you're if you really try you can you can often bending the rules get stuff done but I don't worry about breaking the rules in that sense if I were like going completely off protocol and prescribing the wrong antibiotic then yeah I would worry am I breaking the rules but yeah I think Germany use I I think it may be sometimes like early on if your consultant is saying to do something that's not the guidelines as well sometimes that's tricky because they're saying we're gonna do this and you're like the guidelines for like lower respiratory tract infections save this antibiotic and you have to kind of accept that often what your consultant says goes but and they might have hopefully a reason for doing it slightly differently yep Molly how do you keep your hair so beautiful and shiny I don't know I mean this has been up all day at work but I did wash it today I only realized like two weeks ago that girls always wear the hair up at work you have to I just had never noticed that it's really annoying really annoying because then if I have something like this after work or like um meeting a friend or something then I basically have to accept that it's gonna be up all day Joseph says Molly when are you starting your blog and I have got a blog I don't really use it very often at this point you said a URL and people visit it it's called www can bridge foodie com nice but let me know any Content you want there because at the moment it's just random recipes and reviews of restaurants but if there's anything you want let me know oh we have another five euro super chat from Carlos bornus Carlos May I feel like you've donated a super chat in the past your name and picture looks familiar this is really old that people can just donate money no questions need money donated to we know we don't but we can get a takeaway tonight what the proceeds of this which we wouldn't have done otherwise please don't you have to do any money what advice would you give to a 15 or 16 year old medical aspirant I would say just get really good grades cuz that's the main thing that matters I would say try to I would say that you should try and get some experience so that you can understand what medicine actually involves okay but realistically come on like a week of work experience is not gonna give anyone and I do have one medicine actually involves yeah but you don't it doesn't have to be work experience you can talk to people and find out what their job is like and what's your videos that will give them that oh nice yes but as Dean I I think that's important because there's a lot of people who I met who just turned up at Medical School and then were like I don't actually want to be here I don't want to be a doctor I don't know I feel like this is an exaggeration because it we all have to do work experience of some description to get in and I don't know about your experience of work experience but most of the doctors that I spoke to even at the time said to be honest if I have my time again I probably wouldn't do it maybe I was just talking to the wrong people but like every everyone who gets into medical school has done work experience there's a requirement for getting in but I feel like the short amount of time you do work experience cannot prepare you for what it's actually missing that's why I'm saying get some experience that you feel is actually showing you stuff about medicine like for instance I went to speak to a GP about her career and about the job rather than getting experience just during GP consultations and things I think it's if you can find out more about hospitals and how they work that might tell you if you actually want to do medicine because they were quite a few people who did leave medical school because they then realized it wasn't for them yeah which I feel like is a bit of a waste when so many people we actually had a 10 pound donation from Patrick Sinclair but his message was deleted by Armand oh man can you stop being so heavy-handed on the moderation please because we can't see this message now so Patrick thank you so much for the donation yeah if you post a question to chat normally we will make sure to prioritize it and a comment stopping before the Molly moves out Ali please make a do a tech review of any gadget she uses I use this gadget what is it it is here's my tech review I'm really good at these minute it is an iPhone 11 and that is the only gadget I use you're welcome cool and we have another super run it's that Romanian - link from Tao Alexandra thank you for the 7 pound 49 or whatever that equivalent is in Romanian currency I think is Romanian I'm not sure that you threw it in ease the euro Mali is the cutest pie ever nice thank you ok I have nothing to do besides having a youtube channel this summer watch it what I've heard is should I do to fill the time is that a plug for product Timothy is YouTube channel I guess today's everyone to visit product in with YouTube channel another super chat from Super Christ lover please stop excellent this makes me feel really bad I feel like I have to do this say here you go please don't feel like you have to do this but super Christ lover thank you noted Molly if I wanted to do what Ali is doing a youtuber and a doctor what would my life look like I think well basically Ali spends all of his time at work or filming videos I also spend a lot of time just waste money I spent an hour and a half this morning just lying on the sofa scrolling Instagram yeah he does do that everyone thinks that he's the most productive person in the world but often I him procrastinating especially about brushing his teeth he spent about an hour building up to brushing his teeth yeah it gets very problematic Oh Carlos thank you for the other five euros Molly and uh Lima to set up a rocket league game rocket League is really good it's like this sort of football but with cars and you sort of boost in you there's a beauteous ball it's like a video game you plan can you play on the switch it's really good the switch what is it called the switch was it just good switch ON switch or on the switch I don't know what is switch you know the Thunder you were talking about the Instagram or the Facebook no I'm like the iPhone okay I'm sure I'm sure the marketing would say you know shot on iphone but it would be reasonable people to say she shot Sam Donnellan 79 pennies thank you very much for that ah-hem eco will peach oh well hello we were meant to chat today but we evidently didn't manage to chat today do you feel the UK is unnecessarily precious about their med school application process forcing a fair amount of Brit students to pursue education abroad without NHS bursaries etc I think it's supply and demand thing what I mean in what as in the UK's are necessarily competitive in medical applications forcing people to then go abroad I mean I supply diploma there is a certain number of medical places it's a good training train everybody who applies yeah I know so a lot of people who apply probably shouldn't get in as well because you need to have a certain level of Oh sounds like it's bordering a being problematic well degree of what many know is in every single degree you're gonna have many more applicants than are actually suitable for doing that degree and could actually do that degree yeah I thought you were gonna say you know there are some people they just only aren't intelligent enough to do medicine I feel like that'll be off-brand for you there no no as in they might be bit like at the application stage you can't just accept everyone can you to any application not everyone's gonna be able to do it my goodness $100 donation no you're kidding thank you a hard al-hasan you're an absolute legend this is really weird thank you but that spray mate we can get the necessary we can get the hundred hundred quid sushi platter from I've got vegetables that go up I'm not making pasta tonight I do think the emergency medicine suits you thank you what's the most important productivity tip er to not procrastinate for me it would be family me from my favorite daughter on set well if I knew do not procrastinate I need to just have my phone taken away from me because I spend hours on my phone that's all I do in the evening it's just sit on my face Emma people started using those like time safes it's like a container you put your phone in it and it doesn't let you open it it like grows a tree if you leave it for a while what I forest the app yeah can you not seen any of my hat what's on my iPhone videos thank you hard other son for the donation oh here we go don't feel guilty Molly people donate the live streamers all the time Alan never done it for five clowns just to say that thank you so much we have another one 199 from Murray child's what's the best pre-med course for med school that's a very American question we don't really do pre-med in the UK and I'm sorry I have absolutely no idea what you're talking about I guess chemistry biology well what does that even mean okay oh whoa we've got little comments this is just ugly being happy in Molly feeling guilty are they why are your ears and nose always red Cambridge or Oxford if you don't feel like you can money you can always donate it to charity trying to begins at home Oh what is this this is 100 like rupees or something Arvin throw much on the run Thank You Ali for everything I'm a fan thank you very much Harvin thank you for the cheeky donation love you what a little did you do what grade did you get if I want to be public why not be embarrassed I did math chemistry biology and German and I got three to a stars and an A in German oh okay I can see why you want that to be public I did biology chemistry physics and maths added an English Literature at a s but then I dropped off a 2 and I got 4x dollars how did a general studies as well and got next door in that but no one's counting okay job yeah proud of you thanks man Oh Jack Hennessy five euros 49 thank you hi guys if I'm getting 60 to 70% in some important subjects as a 15 year old do you think I could improve enough so I could I could study medicine well yeah if you if you work hard and yeah I'm working the right way then you can improve it Emma check out my skill shot Carson how to study for exams that gives you basically everything you need to know to study for exams use active recall in spaced repetition if you're not getting very good grades just in general chances are you're not testing yourself enough that is like the single biggest thing that makes people get magically immediately better grades just testing themselves more it is the way forward we are further from Patrick Sinclair oh the dude who previously gave 10 pounds but then hormone was being a bit what's your proudest moment as a doctors in the past two years can be outside / inside of being a doctor and proudest moment in two years oh yeah cuz that's how long we've been touching doing this um um I think like a moment where you felt dead chopped with yourself I had one a few weeks ago where one of the consultants said to me hey Ally my heart always sings whenever I see that you're on call with me because it's really nice working with you and I was like oh thank you that was like the best thing ever yeah I mean these it's nice when people give you good feedback um I don't know in medicine there's just I find out there's just lots of little things that your paddle there's not like one massive moment that he's incredible and doing 10k was I was probably more proud of than anything I've done in medicine doing 10k as in racing 10k Molly did a wheelchair race and rest 10 kilometers yeah and she was very proud of that and I want it even oh yeah we want it that's you want it okay Oh Hasan Krejci enjoy the food shameless plug medic Stiles what's medic Stiles I don't know but apparently someone's sister look actually google medic Stiles oh right search with Google medic Stiles there's a fantastic clothing store with hundreds of satisfied customers oh these these are t-shirts that have medical stuff written on them it's just a sharp scratch this vet Rox love doctors oh we should get that for her nice very cool medic stop everyone check out medic styles calm is a good ROI on your marketing budget mate well my goodness the chatting talking Thank You house I'm Croce for the plug are your camera folks on the mic fix it wow that's a bit that's a bit bit aggressive Calliope Molly's flatmate when you go to the USA no I'm moving out and living with someone else many apologies only think we haven't we have another super chat let's go down a bit five five sync dollars yeah sorry I'm sat in that active wrist I'm mid-twenties what advice would you give to get things together and dating fam Korea YouTube as it seems like there's a pressure to get it right right ASAP well on the dating front I consider myself an armchair expert on this a book that someone recently recommended to me was how to be a 3% man and I started reading there and I think down this is some good stuff other things I would recommend her models by Mark Manson the game by Neil Strauss the art of seduction by Robert Greene the rational male by Rollo Tomassi lots we've got the mystery method is a bit crap old-school start with those books what else family you're a family don't you what about getting things together with your family I mean I feel like that starts with this kind of yeah I being nicer to your parents and then get married and stuff career and youtube I think do what you enjoy yeah that's good advice if you can obviously that sir a privileged thing to say yeah you and your white privilege if you can do do something you enjoy and then it will fall into place much more easily than if you're forcing yourself to do something you don't enjoy you really entertainment together you should do this more often oh right what did you only thinks of all questions now they're thinking yeah because you keep picking the super chat ones and I think we should pick people who aren't paying for it that's so socialist Monti clearly roads labor probably Mesa I can't read this as quickly as you can if I actually get a ride fine those looking great nice thanks man what's the most unconventional choice you've made in your lives from Maya it's like a YouTube channels pretty rug yeah um probably choosing not to it's not very unconventional but choosing not to Train straightaway and having a year out this year nice all right I need a wee you think you've also questions oh god here it goes this is me going solo um right just so you all know there's about five different things on this screen and I don't understand any of them so bear with and when you move to the USA where your coffee offer still stand of course it will Annie will have a coffee offer forever have you ever had to deal with difficult colleagues Ali Ali has no comment on that one you always have difficult colleagues but you just have to figure out make sure you do your best and then don't sort of follow them if they're trying to do the wrong thing Molly what techniques do you use for study um well I basically just when I study basically what I do is I have I make spider diagrams of something so I will read notes I don't tend to make my own notes I just read the notes try and sort of remember it or and test myself as I go along on it I guess I don't recall that active recall and then I make spider diagrams which is again active recall I guess where you are so say it's like blood disorders or something I'll make a spider diagram and try and write everything I can and then fact check it against the notes I've just read that tends to be my my way of studying [Music] embarrassing story about Ali hmm what embarrassing story about Ali could I give you all and let's have a think I don't know what would be embarrassing for him the problem is he doesn't really get embarrassed by anything and I guess the fact that he's really untidy he tries to pretend that he's all clean but actually everything like you'll see this perfect thing you love his YouTube videos and actually the whole house is a tip most of the time money what is your favorite color blue is my favorite color anymore super chuck's anyone know stop in where is Molly from I'm from somewhere called Harpenden which is just north of London where you really from Huffington just north of London how do you get so comfortable on camera and we're sharing your life online Ali can answer this one because I'm still not there yet yeah but you're sort of you've lived long so how have you become more comfortable with it well anyway you have done this like two years ago no um well because I constantly spend my life avoiding it it's becoming easier to be in your videos than out of them I think once you start doing it you get more used to it don't you wife the UK covered death rate so high loads different reason multi factorial yeah too many things to answer that especially if you just met donate $2 for that question that's a million dollar question mate yeah exactly Molly do you ever get the feeling that Ali thinks he's better than you how does this make you feel that's a good question do you get the feeling that I think you're better than me I think you think the way you do things is better than everyone how's it well what things specifically as in I don't think you inherently as a person thinks you're better than me but you will often try to interrogate the way that I do things and find ways of why I should be doing it your way okay I'm trying to educate me in the way that I could be enlightening myself to your amazing way of doing things of course but actually you don't you might not sometimes think actually her way might be better what sort of things that you do change some things you do but and I know just all the things of self-esteem or productivity or those kind of things you automatically think that your way is the best way the self esteem voice no I think in in in lots of things okay I'm not giving exact examples of it but like we have so many chats where it's you trying to interrogate why on earth I would be doing something in this way yeah anything that comes from a place of thinking that I I have the answer and the way you're doing it is wrong which is why I'm trying to understand it yeah almost thinking why why would you do it this way okay and trying to educate me to be a different way whereas often I'm like I'm happy the way I am okay interesting I think you think a lot of people can improve their life we're obviously with the things that you put out there but actually I think there are multiple ways to function and to do well and to be happy and they don't necessarily have to be your way but that doesn't mean you think you're better than other people I'm I'm surprised you got that idea because I've certainly always been an advocate people can do whatever the hell they want but ya know I don't think you try to make people do anything else but for example you often like amazed that I would do something in the way I do good because it's a different way why why would you think that way yeah and you try to sort of teach me how to do it different oh is that the oppression you get that I'm going to teach you how to do it differently as opposed to I'm trying to I'm trying to understand your point of view and figuring out where where we disagree yeah but you know how we've talked about before that like some people and like sometimes you need someone to just be like yes that's rubbish I'm sorry that that's happened or something yeah rather than being like let's interrogate how you manage this situation and try okay change it so I think it's your way of trying to help someone yeah because that's how you would interrogate yourself as to why did this happen how did I react to it and that kind of thing whereas yeah sometimes like other people would just want to be like yes that was really difficult oh okay yes it's really hard let's leave it that rather than being like why are you thinking this this is okay yeah I think I definitely kind of sort of this certainly more so in the past have defaulted to problem solving mode because in the past I wrongly believed that if someone and you know for example you was complaining about a problem the only rational reason to complain about a problem is because you want that problem to be solved yeah but there is a large swath of the population who would complain about a problem purely for the sake of complaining about the problem not looking for a solution for it I would disagree that that's because I think I'm this way is better I just think it's it's it's surprising and then you think okay I guess that's the way some people are fair enough yeah oh you've had a bad day I'm sorry to hear that man type thing yeah I don't think you think you're better than men okay good because I don't I don't think I'm better than you and I want to I will I was concerned if you've got that impression because it means that I'm not coming across the way that I am internal no no but I think you if it is helpful because you make me think about things in different way often people complain about focus oh here we go that's a fun is that what f means focus it's really interesting that for a lot of a lot of us all of this early is that this pedestal but for Molly she's just coming at him full criticism you go sis yes you go he is just a normal person with many many floors which I spent two years working at yep lool this is so passive-aggressive only did that this video we're talking about impostor syndrome oh yeah trying to understand why you feel feel that sensitive thing you towards your exams and why you are that way yeah in that sense I think my way my way is objectively better because it means that it makes me less it it reduces the amount of suffering in the world and I think that is better it is better alright guys come on with me on this one Molly Molly Molly how do you learn or remember stuff from just reading do you just reread it before spider diagrams but this is what I meant is that I read it but as I'm reading it I constantly will be like oh try and remember the thing that I read two pages ago and how does that relate to why I'm reading now etcetera etcetera which is why I was talking about the active learning that Ally puts her name to but yes I think I some people find it easier to remember stuff if they write it down but for me that doesn't help me and that takes me a lot longer so it's easier for me if I read but I spend a long time reading because I'm thinking back over stuff over and over again and thinking how it links to a different thing I've read another words actually recall yep and then this by the diagram is the icing on the cake you're in charge of the questions am i I'm saying but I find it really difficult this thing goes so so quickly yeah people are commenting too many things does money have a youtube channel no she doesn't but these ones I've seen before they say you have people have repeating questions right okay fine I was getting very confused and desperate put together okay and it's money more productive than you know Oh aha hey how's it going we should grab lunch on Tuesday tomorrow if you're free sorry what's your biggest pet peeve with each other or in general life I've always said that my biggest pet peeve is that Ali doesn't put things away so there's like a sea of where he's opened a box of something the box is still there just as he's taken the stuff out he's left the packaging just unraveled there's a milk lid left there where he's just made the tea I feel like I should have Will Smith's face plastered on my face right now if it's the leaving stuff up I don't understand that maybe kitchen is so clean right now yeah it is but you you didn't tell me that a cleaner had come you took the credit for that how different does Ali act off-camera he doesn't really act differently he acts the same put Jake on your videos ollie if you follow me on instagram you'll see lots of videos of Jake and Jake's moving here so you'll see even more videos Deep Diver Jake when Ali turns up at our house all the time also we have a good episode of our podcast not overthinking talking about loud culture where Jake was a guest but gets them Honor I think name that you were there while we were recording it I don't think I've ever listened to that Lego so I must have listened to it yeah absolutes that there and you'll kind of love it was like cackling in the background I know oh I think I was made to film that one to record that name some self-help books Molly I don't think I have any self-help books there's probably lots out there Molly do you play an instrument I used to play clarinet and I haven't played it in about five years at least I should get that out another time [Music] how was Cambridge helpful in both of your learning experiences what advantages do you think Cambridge has given you brand France I think yeah I mean I loved going to Cambridge it was really really good and I thought I would hate it but it was really fun yeah it was really fun really some really fun experiences like formal dinners and really unique things that may bongs that kind of thing but I do think actually also things like because we used to have these like small groups supervisions when there would be like five or six of us and so you'd have to put forward your point and those kind of things and so I think it made you much better at speaking up and answering questions on the spot because of that method of teaching Oh double super chat are they please check out your mother if you get the chance as the same as plug from medic Stiles I feel like I've submitted styles again I feel like I've seen your emails and I feel like I look at the stuff but I felt like it's not the sort of clothing that it will actually realistically wear but you would wear this this is david dobrik much who's that oh come on this says clickbait this is like this is like clever whereas you know a t-shirt saying medicine rocks is just a bit lame Sorry mate so I don't know if you can send me links to specific things where the design or the branding is possibly more subtle and more clever then I'll be happily I'll happily check them out what do you both see each other doing in 15 to 30 years this is a good question yeah I mean I think what I see you're doing a 15:30 oh so you'll be between the age of 40 and 55 yeah I reckon you will have four kids by that point and you'll be a four four kids I used to think I did but I don't think I think I got enough time now see second thing that's full c-section yeah I'm on that three or four kids exactly um yeah I don't know if I'll be a full-time mum I used to think I would but I do quite like working actually so I don't know if I'll do part-time we'll see I think why do I see you thirty years time how about fifty-five well I think you will have I think you'll be big in medical education cuz that's where you want to go I'm on CB I find that's outlet nuts out the big thing I don't know you could be doing anything in 30 years time I presume you won't still be working full time as a doctor there's no way you'll be doing that but then I can't see you're just doing ad hoc any shifts I feel like you'll have to train in something by then so don't know maybe you'll be in America living it up who knows mm-hmm I want to do medicine but I'm afraid the work name would be too much do you have any advice just do it the workload is not too much you can cope with the workload so that's a very wholesome way of answering I would default to answering that if you think the workload will be too tough then don't do it yeah if you I mean only do it if but then I felt like the world over I would have said oh I'm scared that it's gonna meet you and you would have needed this that's all yeah yeah to be honest the whole medical worker thing is an absolute myth it's propagated by everyone who thinks oh I'm a medical student I'm hard done by coz my life is really freaking hard because I work really hard it's propagated about all the medical applicants who are like oh my god I'm applying to medicine it's the hardest thing in the world it's it's all mythical it's all very doable it's no harder than most other degrees and we as met as a medical sort of community and community medical students and doctors need to stop propagating this lie that medicine is just inherently more difficult and harder than ever so absolutely everything else and is just it's an this is my pet peeve when people over glamorize the difficulty of medicine because it's cool yeah I I would agree to some extent it is difficult and there is a lot of work involved but it's totally doable and it's no different to a lot of other careers that you have to do Molly why aren't you moving to America I would never move to America well firstly I would never be able to afford my medical bills in America I don't really like the privatization of the system there I don't like the idea of working as a doctor there in a system that is that people have to pay you for your services I really love the NHS and don't see myself working in a different system to that but personally as well I just I like living here I don't think I would suit America very well and and yet as I said I don't think I could pay for my own health care or get insurance fair enough yeah can you start a YouTube channel whilst doing medicine no possible the workload is so hard what to do anything else Molly what music do you listen to do you recommend listening to music while studying I'm sure that you must have done a video on that it's actually in the skills checklist thinking the video management oh yeah and I listen to a very eclectic mix of either classic rock or like soppy music or musicals that's kind of my bag nice mm-hmm how to prepare for a medical exam that takes three years to prepare but you only have a year and a half there is no medical examiner takes three years to prepare this is a myth this is falling into that myth of medicine is really hot a year and a half is a very long time I cannot imagine a single medical exam that you need more than a year and a half to prepare for it what did Molly do in third year thanks Vanessa for asking um so in third year for context at Cambridge you have a when we did it you had first two years you reduce of like pre clinical medicine and anatomy physiology pharmacology the hard core science stuff and then in third year you had the choice of what you studied for that whole year which was really cool because you could have a year out essentially of doing your actual degree so I chose to do history and philosophy of science and medicine which I literally loved it was a year of just thinking completely differently writing essays about like the 18th century medicine so yeah I loved that Alec did psychology and you can watch his video about how well he did on his youtube channel you won't be flatmates anymore I hadn't even thought that you would stop living together will you miss each other Annie told me yesterday who's gonna miss me I didn't I didn't easily miss I said specifically I said I was feeling sad that you're leaving she's not the same categorically as missing you mm-hmm I said I would feel sad that you're leaving because it would force me to confront my own loneliness yeah although I don't think I use the word loneliness either I said it would force me to think about think harder by the meaning in my life he's gonna miss me basically yeah I'll miss some things about living here it's an interesting life isn't it living with someone like you yeah yeah man what do you think of biomedical engineering medical engineering I think it sounds something I think biomedical engineering you do things like make my hip do you okay yeah biomedical engineers make like medical equipment I think please do how I edit YouTube videos Olli may I have a 35 video skillshots about this early Abdal TOCOM slash editing to get free access to it after becoming doctors do you get day to day messages and phone calls from family about daily medical issues no I do every single day really I've seen at the hospital from family yeah family phone calls I family a from my family are you doing that women - yeah friends and fellows know about oh yeah I get that - all right if you like yeah my family always send me pictures of their like latest rushes and what depression and every time I tell them to go to their GP because I can't give advice nice what's your favorite thing about Olli that we can't still going outside okay manual focus now we can do this there we go now man you should on the Facebook yeah right um my favorite thing about Ali mm same we need to choose father is really good imagine must be hard and I think he always he always makes time for other people if you need if I needed your help you would always be there yeah I think like whenever I ask you to do something for me you do actually do it for me mean yeah I'm not gonna say no to reasonable request exactly yeah but that's something some people like I know I can rely on you to do to help me if I need your help I like helping me move my belongings yesterday yeah I think yours you're buttering me up for the long moves that are gonna happen over the next few weeks Oh Karthik trauma is so boring well I'm sorry this is boring for you Karthik you know what I call him instead prick I think you prick no that's not good either Ali give me some advice and starting a medical education company much like six men don't do it it's a saturated market it's really hard only do things where you have an unfair advantage because otherwise you're competing with too many people so I would recommend against it also don't want to compete against six matter how do you stay motivated Alan loves the word motivation I love the word motivation yeah do you think nurses get the credit they deserve no I could not be a nurse myself and I think they do an amazing job I leave the sweetheart yeah thanks cookies and potatoes you legend Molly do you use notion yeah Annie had to just teach me how to even get nation to open on the computer just now Maria you are gorgeous dear lots of love Thank You Molly as someone who lived with Allie for two years what would you want to say to Ali's future wife oh good question good luck yeah that's what my mom would say as well yeah make sure you've got a hobby and something to fill your time what is your idea of a day off doing this and day off I would go for probably two meals out with different friends go for a swim maybe go to a nice national trust place nice walk go to the Harriet cafe and Tea Room yes really good I've been many times yeah and I can't mmm no Molly is a sweetheart I don't know what that was in response to will future recipes be vegan was that a general question about the Straits to state to the world I don't know but if you're talking about my Cambridge foodie then I make tofu stir-fry about every few days although it does use egg noodles if I use rice noodles then it would be vegan how did you pursue it persuade your family to live with Ollie how did I persuade my family I think what they're asking is how do you perceive your family that it was okay to live with me if they never questioned really that's what I did well as in they thought that living with one person might oh okay but I didn't have any other person so I didn't know yeah yeah Molly what your opinions of tame I love tame he's great although he does still owe me six pound fifty for posting that parcel so he said he would pay it back recently yeah there's no way thought alright I feel like we should sort of come to a close if anyone has any more super chance they'd like to give us final final few questions no damn fill your lifetime fill your time only a savage someone should make that into a thug life mean what is Ali's dream girl like I think he needs someone he's impressed means a strong word I think Ali's dream girl is endlessly patient no but crucially she's not a patient yes true I think his dream girl is someone he is impressed by and she has a lot going for them themselves because I think you like it when you see someone who's doing something impressive but it takes a lot to impress you I think that's fair to say yeah alright so we call it day yeah good stuff any parting comments that's been fun yeah thank you for joining thank you everyone for joining in the chat thank you to everyone split especially especial thing he did everyone who's donating money you our killer was gonna say you are better people than the people who didn't donate but I thought that would be wrong to say all over the internet that is wrong okay thank you for the people who just did comments that's nice anything you'd like to plug follow her on Instagram yeah follow my Cambridge freely on Instagram and Cambridge foodie calm if you fancy and yeah you can see all of our fun of me moving out and living about 50 meters away so don't worry yeah I'll be here great all right a lot of time to order some takeaway hey bye everyone