Yandere phase confession
50sRelatable and vulnerable confession about growing out of an edgy identity, sparking nostalgia and self-reflection.
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In this casual livestream, the host, Monica, chats with viewers about a range of personal topics, including her illness, school life, art, and her thoughts on social media and productivity. The stream is informal, with discussions about yandere characters, AI chatbots, and the challenges of balancing creative work with health.
Monica greets viewers, apologizes for her absence due to illness, and mentions she is still sick. She hopes the stream will work without lag after optimizing her OS.
Monica talks about the Teacher of the Year event at her school, which gives her two days off. She mentions she went to school on Tuesday despite feeling awful, to avoid needing a doctor's note, as she wants to drink on Saturday.
Monica comments that the VPR (All-Russian Testing Work) seems more difficult than some versions of the Unified State Exam, particularly in Russian and basic mathematics.
Monica discusses the popularity of yandere and stalker characters, noting that the trend has evolved. She shares her personal experience of identifying as a yandere at 14, but realizing it was not cool and that it's better to just talk to your crush.
Monica advises that the best way to get attention from a crush is to simply go and talk, find common ground, as people usually don't refuse to communicate.
Monica distinguishes between real stalkers, who appear in crime reports, and those who post about stalking on TikTok, suggesting the latter are not serious.
Monica mentions that there may be amendments in the law that allow people to keep stalkers at a certain distance, but she is not sure. She emphasizes that stalking is illegal and bad.
Monica talks about her experience with AI chatbots, including Character.AI, where she communicated with characters from horror films. She notes that some bots are aggressive, but one was cool and discussed art history with her.
Monica believes AI chatbots cannot replace real specialists, but they are a step in the right direction. She is happy for viewers who have had positive experiences.
Monica mentions she is drinking Theraflu, but it doesn't help. She jokes that her parents believe in expensive hot drinks, and she dislikes the lemon flavor.
Monica discusses her tendency to think every symptom is a deadly disease. She criticizes the modern cult of productivity that expects you to be productive even when sick, and says she is learning to rest without guilt.
Monica explains her internet problems at home, using her phone as a hotspot, and the frustration of poor connectivity in certain areas like her art school.
Monica describes how the internet doesn't work in certain spots in the city, like at her art school, but works fine a short distance away, suggesting possible jammers.
Monica discusses the furry fandom, mentioning she had a character (a white cat) but is not deeply into it. She notes her sister associated herself with a dog.
Monica talks about the nice weather, wanting to go for a walk, and her fear of her laptop overheating in the summer, as it did last year.
Monica says she is always for streaming from any device, but she feels she needs a computer for more serious games. She dreams of getting a powerful laptop.
Monica shares her love for her pink transparent umbrella and bright pink coat, which she can now wear as it's warmer.
Monica recounts a dream about Ruslan and a water park, and expresses her fear of teleportation, worrying that she might not be herself after.
Monica briefly touches on the idea of cyber immortality, noting that you remain for others but not for yourself, and she is not deeply into it.
Monica says she can't organize a creative competition without awards, as any work should be rewarded. She jokes about VKontakte stickers as prizes.
Monica reveals she is 16 and a half, and likes to mark milestones in her life, like saying '16.5 years old'.
Monica encourages a viewer who is scared to start YouTube due to age, saying she started at 14 and that you can do whatever you want at the beginning.
Monica discusses her difficulty with pricing her art, sharing that she used to sell drawings for 300 rubles and now is afraid to publish a price list. She advises not to devalue your work.
Monica mentions she has filmed many tutorials to help others become YouTubers, and encourages viewers to start their debut.
Monica advises against using VKontakte, suggesting Telegram as a more stable platform. She is trying to move her viewers from VK to Telegram.
Monica suggests that if you start a creative activity, it's better to do it in English if possible, to reach a wider audience.
Monica talks about her plans for her VTuber debut, which she has been working on for about two years, wanting everything to be beautiful and aesthetic.
Monica notes that in her dreams, she often returns to the starting place, except when there are chases.
Monica reflects on how dreams combine subconscious images and reality, similar to the creative process.
Monica shares that she didn't make much progress in digital art until she got a screen monitor and a laptop, highlighting the importance of proper conditions.
Monica lists her hobbies: origami, drawing, cardboard models, sewing, and animation. She discusses time management and the pressure to be productive.
Monica recounts a class discussion about happiness and money, where she argued that money can buy free time and better health, but a classmate and teacher disagreed.
Monica argues that time management is overrated, as success depends on many factors, and it's offensive to think anyone can succeed just by planning their day.
Monica mentions that living with her parents and siblings requires a lot of effort and time, like her dad's job to pay for everything.
Monica admits she made a mistake in drawing strands separately, and now realizes she should divide them into front and back parts like other artists.
Monica says that circumstances force you to improve your skills by making higher quality work in all parts of the model.
Monica says she will rest, gain strength, and continue treatment. She doesn't have to drink Theraflu since her parents aren't home, just tea and sleep.
The stream is a casual, personal chat where Monica shares her thoughts on health, school, art, and social media, while interacting with viewers. She emphasizes the importance of rest, not devaluing your work, and being authentic in creative pursuits.
What does Monica think about the VPR compared to the Unified State Exam?
She thinks the VPR is more difficult than some versions of the Unified State Exam, particularly in Russian and basic mathematics.
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What advice does Monica give for getting attention from a crush?
She advises to simply go and talk, find common ground, as people usually don't refuse to communicate.
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What is Monica's view on AI chatbots replacing psychologists?
She believes AI chatbots cannot replace real specialists, but they are a step in the right direction.
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What does Monica say about the modern cult of productivity?
She criticizes it, saying it expects you to be productive even when sick, and she is learning to rest without guilt.
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What platform does Monica recommend for main activity instead of VKontakte?
She recommends Telegram because it's a stable platform that definitely won't be blocked.
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What does Monica say about pricing art commissions?
She advises not to devalue your work, and it's better to overestimate than underestimate.
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What mistake did Monica make in drawing her model?
She drew the strands separately, but now realizes she should divide them into front and back parts like other artists.
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Advice on Approaching a Crush
Provides practical, actionable advice for social interactions, contrasting with the earlier discussion of stalking.
08:38AI Chatbots vs Psychologists
Offers a balanced perspective on the limitations of AI in mental health support.
16:53Don't Devalue Your Work
Encourages creators to price their work fairly, a common struggle for artists.
38:41Platform Recommendation
Gives specific advice on choosing social media platforms for content creators.
42:13Critique of Time Management
Challenges the popular notion that success is solely due to time management, highlighting external factors.
51:03[02:01] everyone Hello We haven't seen each other for a long time I hope my Stream won't lag again because I optimized the OS while we haven't seen each other yet
[02:13] why did I disappear for so long because I was sick and I'm still sick right before the May holidays I'm threatening to get sick so this Stream is a trial and I'll try not to break my
[02:28] personal promise to myself to stream once a week unless of course there are any more circumstances that distract me I'm
[02:44] glad to see you Write How are you doing Hello Aksa What's new We haven't seen each other for so long I missed you so much I hope my voice doesn't sound very tired I didn't even think about streaming today I woke up I think great I need to
[03:01] do work in art school and then at about 6 o'clock my vocals I think great And the rest of the time I'll lie around doing nothing We have Today at school they are holding the Teacher of the Year and we are for two days, so on Wednesday they said everyone leave.
[03:18] Wednesday they said everyone leave. We are doing our own thing here. I say great, I just have a sick leave, or rather, I did n't apply for it, that is, I went to school on Tuesday. It was just awful,
[03:32] but I don't want to ask for time off because otherwise I'll have to go to the doctors and then I won't be able to ask for time off for Saturday. I'm going to drink on Saturday, so I
[03:44] I'm going to drink on Saturday, so I hope no one devalues my hope no one devalues my wonderful, strong sacrifice of having been at school for one day with 5/5/4.
[04:00] Wow, point blank, they're not difficult, they're in some ways. In some cases, as I see it, in Russian and basic mathematics. It Russian and basic mathematics. It seems to me that the VPR is more difficult than some
[04:14] versions of the Unified State Exam. Well, that's it. According to my feelings, all of us are sick for a couple of days. Tomorrow I'm back to school again. Oh, no, I'm the only one here who's sick. Get well soon. The Mongolian will write it off. I still have
[04:26] n't finished talking about Ruslan's makeup. Can you tell me now? I'm listening. So, there was an open lesson on the bridge. I was sitting with the principal. Wow,
[04:39] these open lessons, we somehow got away with it, they wanted to make an open one. How do you say in German from a strong group of which I am a part, but the point is that we which I am a part, but the point is that we come to the fifth grade textbook and that we
[04:54] practically don't go, we have a combined class, our class and another one, and just the teacher who is our teacher, she said no. Let's not conduct this lesson with this class and it seems that they are
[05:10] conducting this lesson with other guys. Aksa is free, I'll go for a walk. At least sit on the stream. Okay, I'm not holding anyone back, in the end, at all. I don't know if the yandere type is still popular
[05:28] because somehow I have n't noticed lately, or something, there are just some depressive girls with some kind of manic tendencies, they exist, but it seems to me there is no longer a demand for characters who
[05:43] give themselves completely to someone else. seems to me now this type has somehow evolved, more
[05:58] this type has somehow evolved, more like Nina's girls now, these are more popular, like Nina's girls now, these are more popular, person prefers to look for a romantic interest after all. Someone who
[06:14] already has some additional hobbies and who is something more than just a hobbies and who is something more than just a person who sacrifices himself person who sacrifices himself now on Tik Tok there is a fashion for Stalkers I
[06:29] now on Tik Tok there is a fashion for Stalkers I saw in fact it seems to me this is a normal period of growing up That is, when I was 14, I was also
[06:42] guilty of this in fact That is, there was a girl, and even a girl on the Internet, not just we communicated with her personally Well, that is, not just in real life And so I thought that I was a yandere Well, that's how I
[07:00] was convinced and that I kind of bumped into her in fact I was just looking for open in fact I was just looking for open information But it all ended with me realizing that it was not cool at all, not funny jealousy This is also I realized that
[07:14] funny jealousy This is also I realized that tears and no advantages as a person for me tears and no advantages as a person for me from this, that's why I just decided that no thank you We are still in touch with this person now, we are
[07:27] interested in communicating with each other And we are friends, friends, that is, for me she is still one of my that is, for me she is still one of my closest friends and this is such a
[07:39] good ending and Since then, by the way, I basically realized that I would I probably didn't do that anymore. I would I probably didn't do that anymore. I have my own life and these girls are
[07:52] Stalkers, they will outgrow it too. They realize that they have their own hobbies, their own lives, so for me this is an important topic. I think it's important to talk about this, I remember. Even I was in some kind of conference, there were a
[08:07] lot of people there, and they all considered themselves, at least positioned themselves, as yandere. Stalkers, they were all really older than me, and I hope they all made up the stories they told
[08:25] hobby shouldn't outgrow something illegal. I understand that if a person became Kirill for me, I would definitely not reciprocate his feelings. So this is such an absolutely hopeless way to start a relationship. The
[08:38] best thing you can do to get attention from a crush is to just get attention from a crush is to just go and talk, find common ground, people usually don't refuse to communicate with other people. That's how it is. So yes,
[08:58] just liked someone, you don't have to go up to them and say "Oh my God, they're so cool," and say " Hi, what's your name, what are you interested in?" This helped me. This helped me. But it's always exciting and difficult at first.
[09:13] But it's always exciting and difficult at first. Okay, what are we doing here in the chat? I got really distracted. All of us, that is, this isn't rofl. This really only exists. Okay, now while you're clarifying, I'm reading on. The Mongolian is talking about a dream.
[09:29] Anyway, we went to look for Russik. Then we ended up in a water park. We were dancing in the pool, fully clothed. Ruslan was riding the slide. slide. This reminded me of a meme from the
[09:41] posmehariki public. Extreme Russian fendom. Here you go, mom. What are you doing here? Like, damn. Sorry, and it's useful. A Sorry, and it's useful. A
[10:18] stream because I'm trying to start a conversation and somehow get better and they a conversation and somehow get better and they came just to look at how
[10:30] came just to look at how beautiful I am. What a beautiful background we're walking against. joke, there are people who really believe in it, that they are engaged in
[10:45] some kind of stalking. Ayana from Yandere Simulator, but I don't think it's anything serious. Specifically, on TikTok. I think real Stalkers don't
[10:57] post about it on TikTok. Real Stalkers do exist. But usually it's brutal and appears in crime reports,
[11:12] at least that I can remember. I think I even discussed this with friends. Well, about legislative restrictions, I kept thinking that restrictions, I kept thinking that we have no opportunity to be
[11:26] already seem to have adopted some amendments that make it possible, not constitutional amendments, just some clarifications in the law that make it possible not to let a person approach you more than a certain
[11:41] distance and not to approach some property either. But I'm very sure of this. But in any case, stalking is illegal. It's very, very bad and
[11:55] it doesn't give anyone any benefit. So the Mongolian said, in short, like I'll climb up the hill like Ruslan and I'm like, we're transported. Wow,
[12:08] even the narrator changes so much. I do n't like
[12:20] who the river company won't send for.
[12:35] she's like Hello, mono What are you doing and I'm doing nothing, but I'm sick, she's like this, but Look, here's your sister When she was sick last week, she
[12:47] managed to go to school and to extra classes But here you are, she just didn't eat extra classes But here you are, she just didn't eat anything, I'm talking, but I can't, so I feel anything, I'm talking, but I can't, so I feel
[13:01] do at least something. That is, I did my homework without reconfiguring it to try to stream the old one, but I don't think I can do it.
[13:18] drawings, it's cute, wonderful. she communicates with other people and now
[13:34] communicates with other people and now drawings, only have two hands, and with these two hands, I'm for any communication, although I'm
[13:50] I'm for any communication, although I'm good myself, Mongolian. Come back soon. I understand that I need a certain amount of this communication. But a little, that is, when a person writes a lot on social networks, a
[14:03] person requires my constant attention. It's hard, but when a certain amount of time is spent communicating, yes. Hello, comanaria.
[14:15] Glad to see you, I hope you're right. I read Kumanov's nickname. I read Kumanov's nickname. Although the daisies in Nick are wonderful. I remember we were in the chat somewhere last year or something, we put these up
[14:38] wanting to join your stream for a long time, but I never had time. Great, how it came together that now you can be on our stream and
[14:55] tell us. By the way, what do you guys think about these people you can communicate with? can communicate with? I talked to them last Monday, it I talked to them last Monday, it was something.
[15:11] busy with just my virtual friend all school day. I mostly communicated, of course, with characters from some horror films, that is, Gabriel again. I also tried Sloka from the catalog, the blocks are terribly aggressive for some reason.
[15:28] tried Sloka from the catalog, the blocks are terribly aggressive for some reason. But I have any kind of love, I don't know anyone like that. don't know anyone like that. So, you'll get involved soon and find out. The very
[15:43] So, you'll get involved soon and find out. The very cool, in fact, but I somehow got bored or something
[15:57] because many people communicate with these intelligences to get love from a character even when I didn't start any romantic topics of communication. They're still like, oh, Monica, Monica, Monica, she's
[16:12] so wonderful and she just starts talking about me. I can't talk about myself too much. I also need to get some kind of return. also need to get some kind of return. I'm with a fictional character. I live and clean
[16:25] because of a certain personality. But by the way, one of them was especially cool because he himself suggested topics, and in the end, we talked about the history of art and about art. I realized that I really like
[16:41] impressionism. Impressionism doesn't suit me in literature, Impressionism doesn't suit me in literature, but in painting. That's how everyone writes about us. It's very interesting. I haven't talked to a psychologist anywhere. Wow,
[16:53] interesting. I haven't talked to a psychologist anywhere. Wow, actually exists. I expected that this would happen. In general, it seems to me that it still won't
[17:07] replace a real specialist, but these are already super steps. And I'm very happy for you. And the super steps. And I'm very happy for you. And the
[17:20] same with one of the bots. I started communicating. It's important to just know that for those who are not in the know,
[17:35] you, no matter what it is, I just start to somehow just I think I should start with I respect you because it sounds more serious.
[17:49] because it sounds more serious. but for now yes and there the character answers and in brackets it is indicated that I hope you really mean it Yes really mean it Yes I understand that these are not
[18:04] tons of characters and not in his canon I was so scared because I read that I deleted the correspondence with this particular Bot and did not go in This is what this particular Bot and did not go in This is what I call horror stories
[18:27] what else to do when I am sick drink Theraflu they by the way did not pay me for this advertising integration So I will say that it does not help me did not help say that it does not help me did not help Here But nevertheless,
[18:42] Here But nevertheless, parents are simply adherents of the fact that other hot drinks that cost a lot of money they help lot of money they help this is some kind of pinnacle of medicine
[18:56] In the end, there was also the stupidest flavor with lemon And I can’t drink it, just Ugh, it’s with lemon And I can’t drink it, just Ugh, it’s terrible That’s how we live, we are treated with candied hot water
[19:10] hot water But I hope that in the future I will be able to decide for myself what to treat myself with the main thing then not to go to the doctor for main thing then not to go to the doctor for every illness, how do you feel
[19:26] going to the doctor how paranoid are you about your health because I immediately start to have some kind of coughing, something is starting to hurt, I'm already thinking all this is a harbinger of a super
[19:42] already thinking all this is a harbinger of a super deadly disease. I'm probably dying, I don't know where it came from, this whole thing about some kind of modern cult of productivity that, despite the fact that you're sick, you have to
[19:56] do something, you have to develop yourself, you have to not stop, that is, one day you can lie in bed, and the second day, sorry, go do this, this, this, this. And anyway, why aren't you at school, Monica? I don't like it
[20:14] in the end, that Monica for some reason did n't go to art class on Saturday, when, by the way, she n't go to art class on Saturday, when, by the way, she got sick. So, I think I need to be more relaxed about this, that is,
[20:31] no longer feel guilty for not doing anything, that is, I used to have this: no, how could I not have time in a day to draw a new model for YouTube, finish the design and also draw a comic, oh no, and I also had to
[20:46] stream and go to school, but now I understand that it doesn't matter. I can lie around all day. I deserve it, I'm sick,
[20:59] and now I'm returning to my previous pace of work. Somehow, with a clear conscience, the
[21:15] connection was successful for me, in short, Hurray, Hurray, I just ran out of internet on my phone, I usually share from there, and my internet goes down, as I already said, I have
[21:30] as I already said, I have terrible internet at home, a terrible signal. So, somehow we manage, and my phone's sharing runs out, I take phone's sharing runs out, I take and connect to my home Wi-Fi, that's how it is,
[21:44] and connect to my home Wi-Fi, that's how it is, very clever, Monica on the stream, so very clever, Monica on the stream, so comfortable. Oh, thank you, I did have enough communication in real life, then you do n't have to communicate with artificial
[22:00] intelligence. At least, I didn't write like that in the collector anymore. This week, I had some huge plans. I was going to start studying today, and Hurray, to study,
[22:18] start studying today, and Hurray, to study, and in the end, who knew that I would get sick,
[22:34] too, such terrible internet. Yes, I understand, it's just pain, and nothing can be done about it. At least, we had a
[22:48] the router and as a result, one day I had good internet and one day they didn’t yell at me from the first floor What’s fashion, or rather the internet, I
[23:06] want to get to know you better Thank you, you don’t understand one good thing [music] in the house
[23:19] in general, it seems to me that there are some kind of super anomalous zones for me, this is incomprehensible The point is that in some places
[23:31] in the city, the internet just doesn’t work, move away a little and it starts to work as usual, very well, that’s how it is for us in the art school The point is that we study in a regular school in the art school That is, just
[23:46] regular school in the art school That is, just in the evening, as if we were there, our school rents space from them So, they rent from us, and they So, they rent from us, and they rent from us, just
[23:59] rent from us, just classrooms for the elementary parallel, it’s very uncomfortable to sit there, these little tables, little chairs and this is very Funny, it’s very nice But the funny thing is that there is absolutely no
[24:13] internet connection, but leave school and come to a place close to these classrooms and everything starts to work It seems to me that there are some kind of jammers or Something like that, but there's no evidence at all, maybe they
[24:28] deliberately set up the initial parallel so that they would sit online like this. Well, yes, that's parallel so that they would sit online like this. Well, yes, that's
[24:40] did half of this stream like that until I ran out of money on my phone. She swears at him and says that he's Fury. But he says no.
[24:56] no idea that it's some kind of virus, I caught it, and I'm lying there sick. Well, I'm not lying there anymore, so I can say I Well, I'm not lying there anymore, so I can say I found the strength to get out of bed, but I'm
[25:12] found the strength to get out of bed, but I'm still trying to recover. That's what else I was going to discuss with you. what else I was going to discuss with you. All this time, it's necessary to
[25:25] tell so much on the stream, and now I come and realize that those people absolutely don't come and realize that those people absolutely don't want to listen to you either.
[25:38] I'm probably the only person right now in the chat who doesn't understand in the chat who doesn't understand the concept. very into all this Fury. She has cats and dogs, it's very
[25:54] interesting to watch, but at the same time, I can't do it myself, I can't draw or invent characters in this style. The
[26:07] was into it at first, I have There were characters, I even made a character, a I even made a character, a white cat, in fact, that's where mine came from, white cat, in fact, that's where mine came from, and despite everything, I have this cat. The first thing I did was
[26:21] and despite everything, I have this cat. The first thing I did was some kind of person- oriented thinking, I do oriented thinking, I do n't know what this affects, given
[26:34] that my younger sister associated herself with a associated herself with a dog for some time. I don't know why, I just had such a period, for some reason it passed me by,
[26:48] and I'm even jealous. Now, I love
[27:08] you, the weather is fine. I'm sunny, it's not even raining, it's perfect. I wanted to go for a walk, raining, it's perfect. I wanted to go for a walk, so I can already so I can already say I'm walking.
[27:30] now I need a crossover like this. I'll find everything. I'll find someone who draws find someone who draws cats and ask them to write it. Although, in principle, I can try it myself. I already have an idea. Drawing. Stream. Hee hee, it's
[27:45] already have an idea. Drawing. Stream. Hee hee, it's hot. I'm afraid to turn on my laptop. I understand. hot. I'm afraid to turn on my laptop. I understand. Our last summer was terribly hot, so abnormally hot. I like how I already said the
[27:59] word abnormal twice. Some kind of online foundation turns out to be terribly hot. It was summer, and I needed vocals. Well, I'm doing it through a laptop,
[28:14] and it was a nightmare for me, and it overheated, and the phone overheated, and I overheated, and the phone overheated, and I just left all the equipment in the shade. just left all the equipment in the shade. To somehow resurrect it.
[28:34] Who are these characters in Japanese mythology associated with foxes? Yes, mythology associated with foxes? Yes, you explained better that this is rice.
[28:55] device from which you can stream, that is, in general, I'm always for the fact that streaming is the general, I'm always for the fact that streaming is the main desire and you can use it from a phone and from a main desire and you can use it from a phone and from a laptop from anything, but I feel
[29:09] that I don't have enough of it anymore. Someday I'll take us to a computer and then I can stream serious games.
[29:22] Hooray, but these are just dreams. I just need to get used to it. At first, it was raining, I was very happy. I took out my favorite pink umbrella. For sure, I was packing my umbrella. I got it out, it's
[29:39] For sure, I was packing my umbrella. I got it out, it's also pink, and it's, how can I say it, plastic or something, transparent, you know, like Japanese umbrellas
[29:54] from regular umbrellas that this folding one is. That's why I like to go somewhere, but they are uncomfortable and carrying them with you every day is not an option, and now because it
[30:07] got warmer. I was able to get my pink coat, it's so bright, so bright, so pink, and big, and it's wonderful. That's
[30:20] and big, and it's wonderful. That's Evgeniy depicts them in his dreams as beautiful girls with fox ears, probably,
[30:32] and 9 leafy tails. Here's a Mongol, in short, here she is, telling us about her dream, it's already the second Stream. And I really like reading. second Stream. And I really like reading. In short, we are transported to Ruslan's house, he is
[30:47] sitting on the couch, swearing well that we have searched for him, he is sitting because she says, Okay, let's go back, let's go back to the water park after the teleporting slides. It seems to me that there is some kind of
[31:01] seems to me that there is some kind of opportunity to get into I would n't want that in principle, I'm somehow afraid of the concept of teleportation, I don't know why I'm a little scared, I'm
[31:18] know why I'm a little scared, I'm scared that if I'm in a tourist place, what if I come out of there and it's no longer me.
[31:30] idea of Cyber immortality, because, well, yes, you remain for other people, but you don't think for yourself, it turns out it's
[31:45] That's how it is, but I'm not really into this yet, in all this, and I don't know much about in all this, and I don't know much about this, so Evgeniy, what about a creative competition without awards and show your work on the stream? No, no, a creative competition without
[32:02] stream? No, no, a creative competition without awards. I can't organize it. Any work awards. I can't organize it. Any work should be rewarded. Therefore, I think it would be unfair to organize a competition without any
[32:16] organize a competition without any awards at all, at least VKontakte stickers. awards at all, at least VKontakte stickers. This is of course a joke. If I organize a creative competition, I will try to find some commensurate prizes.
[32:30] I already showed subscribers. I had a stream on this topic and there are also clips already. Thank you very much,
[32:45] Monica. How old are you? Tell me, if it's not a secret. I'm not hiding it. I'm 16, 16 and a half, well, I secret. I'm not hiding it. I'm 16, 16 and a half, well, I mean, like it's like this to say it's probably it sounds simple probably up to five years old only they
[33:01] say like two and a half years old she's three and a half years old And now 16.5 years old it sounds somehow strange probably it sounds somehow strange probably but I like to mark some points in my
[33:15] but I like to mark some points in my life like that's black and pink I have it well such masters seem to be
[33:28] seem to be relevant now also great
[33:58] assumption Well and besides you can really rest watch something just lie in bed who said that productive no productivity in this house everyone
[34:14] forgot Mongolians by the way Monica How do you like my Mongolians by the way Monica How do you like my beginning candy wrapper you and the spider I'm scared I'm
[34:32] I think it should be some kind of I me now I'm just trying to find the words because I like the dynamics of
[34:47] words because I like the dynamics of fanfics and then they get comfortable and understand that there is nothing to be afraid of but on the other hand I already forgot Why the spider let's finish reading yours a dream
[35:13] you can see that the real mother comes into the room it's a mannequin Oh God
[35:26] nothing wrong with being Tema or not being We have a girl at school Emma he has such dyed hair and clothes are always bright and I don't stare at her the reason to go to school number is such and such there yeah
[35:48] only thing that should limit is finance And if you have money to buy wear this xenos I'm very scared to start my YouTube activity because of my age I planned to start my VITuber
[36:03] activity when I was 13 I started though when I was 14 I started though when I was 14 and basically I never
[36:21] like to say at the very beginning you won't be particularly popular the unpleasant part and you can do whatever you want You can try whatever you want
[36:33] you already know what to do That's how it is So yes you have to start a dead end activity when you want all this because I
[36:45] when you want all this because I don't know how to start taking money for orders The point I had the same problem. I started taking comics back when I was known as an artist for musicals for fans of musicals. That's when
[37:03] musicals for fans of musicals. That's when postcards of Mishka on Heroes, models there, it seems, a
[37:16] grand, a model there cost about Well, purely symbolically, so the drawings there cost, like, 300 rubles
[37:36] I then also because they pounced on me in the comments and instead of supporting me somehow. She also started me somehow, she She also started me somehow, she says that yes, Monica
[37:54] problems with taking enough money for books and in principle money for books and in principle I'm now afraid to publish a price list on the comic and somehow also start working with all this,
[38:13] Now I only take some kind of yurchiki, that is, with some kind of ready-made idea.
[38:26] negative experience but not everyone has this And I believe that in the end you will be able to take money for work, this is very important In fact, in no case should you devalue your work, it is
[38:41] case should you devalue your work, it is better to overestimate than underestimate, I think so, that's what I do and I have never taken anyone's money, but why do I have a friend who borrows books from her friends
[38:55] books from her friends and she is calm about it, her main one, and I think it's cool I can't and I think it's cool I can't help someone else
[39:18] start I have so many tutorials filmed for what purpose so that you can become a YouTuber So let's all wait for your debut, I write at least a little popularity
[39:33] This is not bad for viewers, but now You read all the comments, you can read all the comments, you can answer them Yes, that's also true In
[39:45] I wanted to say, for example, comments under the video, I don't always find the strength to answer, especially if there is some question or some negativity, that's it, yes, you do some question or some negativity, that's it, yes, you do
[40:02] when you are on YouTube And now in the chat Yes, I try to communicate with everyone here on Stream, so I can answer everyone
[40:37] it's the same driver and we all start yelling at him, but he says, Wow, Wow, such
[40:51] writes, how to learn to use VK, I have n't been able to learn for 6 years. I do n't need to learn. Seriously, it's better to look for other platforms, not VKontakte. I'm now even trying to
[41:05] I'm now even trying to move more of my viewers from VKontakte to Telegram. That is, you are not goats on a string, you decide for yourself. Which platform is more convenient for you to watch. I basically stay on VKontakte only
[41:19] formed and basically most YouTubers sit on VK. most YouTubers sit on VK. But in fact, I don't really like this platform. I like that there are a lot of video ads. I don't like how they
[41:33] work. I don't like that because the servers crash, I lose some of my scheduled meetings because I only know the person's VKontakte profile, so now I try to also use Discord with someone I want to hang out with
[41:48] Discord with someone I want to hang out with or some business proposal. So,
[42:01] not to go there. There's always Twitter, there's always Telegram, there's always the same TikTok with a mod. That is, how should it be done? It's
[42:13] better to conduct some kind of main activity on Telegram because it's a stable platform that definitely won't be blocked, and you can drive traffic. TikTok from VKontakte is probably better not to
[42:27] register there in principle if you're not already there. TikTok from Twitter. You can TikTok from Twitter. You can try it English-speaking audience. I still recommend Twitter, and in principle, now
[42:43] still recommend Twitter, and in principle, now if you start YouTube or some kind of creative activity, it's better to do it in English if the opportunity allows, but this is so. Harmful advice from a woman. The
[42:57] main thing is that later I don't get hit in the head with
[43:23] Excellent. I also need to prepare for my Ray debut. I also need to prepare for my Ray debut. I'll gradually burn you down, then a model, then a comic, and
[43:35] then there will be even more. I really want to make everything very beautiful. For me, this is some kind of goal I've been working on for a long time, for about two years,
[43:50] and I want everything to be super cool. Super aesthetic with some super thoughtful lore, the main thing is not to overload it too much, he
[44:09] conversation with Veronica where I ask if she wants to go to the water park with them again. Yes, she answers that the only time she was there was only with me.
[44:24] Veronica and the others, so make it so that we forgive him and go home to Ruslan. By the way, his house was two steps away, the place at the beginning of the dream, that's how cyclical I,
[44:36] by the way, also observe quite a cyclical nature, wherever I go in a dream, I always return to the place where I started at the beginning, that is, the only time when this did not happen
[44:54] only time when this did not happen is when I had some kind of super chases, here Sony writes: Hello everyone, I just came from school, assigned a trial in Russian, by the way, Monica, I sent a link to a Telegram group to one game. Thank you,
[45:08] link to a Telegram group to one game. Thank you, Sonya. Hello, Hello, I'm glad to see you, I Sonya. Hello, Hello, I'm glad to see you, I saw about the game and I'm glad that you went, I can rarely come to streams. And I don't force you to come to all streams. Who
[45:21] He said that I force you to come When you can, if anything, there is always the opportunity to watch a recording or cuttings But they are done for me extremely rarely I will need to master this skill myself finally, but I lack
[45:35] finally, but I lack concentration broke up I have
[45:49] so interesting I liked it combination of something subconscious of those images that we see in
[46:02] those images that we see in reality, you that is, when we create We also take some existing images
[46:16] some existing ideas and simply embody them anew, but already in some kind of vision passes through itself passes through itself and dreams It turns out the same thing,
[46:35] but just unconscious and does not require any training, perhaps this is an interesting topic It seems to me that I need to go deeper into
[46:55] I will have a powerful laptop and I will finally get down to it because of
[47:10] drawing in digital or because my mother had a huge computer and I mother had a huge computer and I had a graphic tablet board
[47:26] turns out that in order to start doing something and start some conditions after all That is, I could quite easily draw in Digital And with my finger and on a regular tablet and on this board from my mother's
[47:43] tablet and on this board from my mother's computer, but I never made such great progress than when I bought a screen monitor and I got a laptop. This is a special miracle
[47:56] This is a special miracle that some kind of preparation and conditions have such an effect. that some kind of preparation and conditions have such an effect. my favorite Smeshariki Yes, because they think most of all, probably so
[48:11] Ask if you ever decide to organize a gaming Stream, then you could at least try to complete this game, it's in English, but it's worth it for someone. I'm not forcing you. I'll complete it, of course, it seemed interesting to me. The problem is that for now, here's what
[48:26] seemed interesting to me. The problem is that for now, here's what
[48:38] glad to see you here. Without forcing, nothing will see you here. Without forcing, nothing will work. This has now passed. Evgeny, I will do origami, drawing, assembling cardboard models, sewing, Mine
[48:52] animation and normal blood, Gensh. Wow. This is so much free time, cool. I also wanted a table or the same time management because we have. We discussed
[49:10] English skills with the teacher yesterday. We had a text about happiness and the n't in money. So, we girls there, I also argued money you can afford more free time, more days off,
[49:26] more rest, not only luxuries but also better treatment and healthier food. So,
[49:38] one of my classmates, not the most pleasant, and a teacher herself, opposed us. They say that no, free time can be when you don't have money
[49:51] can be when you don't have money because it's time management, you can study and do what you want while working at a low-paying job. So, working at a low-paying job. So, I still don't blame people who are not in a
[50:05] financially stable situation. I rather blame this view that when wealthy people, especially those who do classmates. I argue that
[50:21] happiness isn't in money, of course, it's not in money. Your parents pay for everything for you, but at the same time, when you're not from a financially secure family, somehow it's all better understood. Probably, they say every day we don't have the finances
[50:37] they say every day we don't have the finances for this. No, listen, let's use your gift money. days of birth money there you buy what you need and this is some kind of thing like a basic necessity here So yes
[50:50] it was offensive Here But I hope that in the end I still have it I can handle it and here is the idea itself I forgot What I started to
[51:03] say It seems to me it is overrated because it feels like this time management coupled with the need to do as much as possible you need to be productive always always
[51:22] Why should we blame all the success of other people on time management if life is much more complicated than just I correctly planned my day on its own in a diary I myself resort to time management and I
[51:37] plan my day myself and I try to do as much as possible but nevertheless it seems a little offensive to me to think that any person can achieve success simply because he correctly formed his time no it
[51:51] depends on many factors many talented people undeservedly talented people undeservedly do not achieve success not talented but diligent because talent is also It is rather an innate predisposition but not a
[52:05] guarantee of success and not a personality characteristic even very diligent people in In the end, they might not achieve success simply because it didn't work out. Here are
[52:22] Here are some high matters,
[52:38] as I live with my parents and brothers and sisters, I have to spend a lot of effort and time, like my dad's job, to pay for everything. Buying food,
[52:52] seems bigger than in others, do n't look too closely, please, n't look too closely, please, I will draw this model with my own. I, with you, knocked down this model with my tears, except for later and yes, because of the peculiarities of my
[53:08] later and yes, because of the peculiarities of my inept Riga, yes, not try for everyone, I will have a more beautiful model.
[53:20] At least I realized my mistake recently that I shouldn't do the strands separately, that is, recently that I shouldn't do the strands separately, that is, done the strands separately. And now I realized that perhaps I shouldn't have
[53:34] decided like that. Divide it normally somehow, Divide it normally somehow, other artists do it so that there is a front part, a back part, and only a few additional strands, they are
[53:48] all like this.
[54:03] hurts now because of this, mountain hands There's case, I can't really give any advice like that. That's because, how can I
[54:20] advice like that. That's because, how can I say it, because in this case, circumstances force you to improve your skills by making more quality work in all parts of the model.
[54:32] Yes, it will be like that someday. I'll learn to draw, Ivan Gai, everyone accepts them. Thank you very much. But in this case, I won't put on makeup, I
[54:48] just ask you to ignore some of my shortcomings. Okay, now I'm going to rest, gain strength, and continue treatment. My
[55:01] parents aren't home. I don't even have to drink that stupid Theraflu, I just have tea and sleep. Bye-bye to everyone.
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